Three things

Affirmations for when doubt creeps in

Grief (n)/Grieving (v)

As I wrap up my last week at work (and potentially, my chosen profession of the last decade-and-half), I find myself grieving for what could have been. Should I have fought harder? Could I have shouted louder? Should I have been more patient? Should I have waited till I had enough power/leverage to affect change? Maybe. Ultimately, the question that truly mattered was, is this what I want to do for the rest of my life?

The Universe and I have been going back and forth on the issue for a while now. This day has been a long time coming.

One day, I hope to look back on these years with a sense of gratitude, thanking the Karmic machinations for plonking me back into my lane, instead of running parallel to it.

Safe (n)/(v)

In ten years of parenting, I’ve learned the importance of showing up for my child every day. no matter how hard it is. Imagine my surprise when I (finally) realised that I owed my inner child the same attention and unconditional love. Not to coddle, but to anchor; to hold and be held; to be a safe space for regrouping, recouping, evolving, and experimenting. To realise that I no longer need to hide. That I am safe (n)/(v).

Trust (n)/(v):

Right from when I can remember, I was taught that trust is earned, but I learned this lesson poorly. After a few (many) wrong turns and hard knocks, I am happy to report that I plan on carrying on regardless. But with a wiser heart.

I am learning to lean in further. To keep my heart open. To have faith. To believe that I am strong enough. To believe that I do know what is best for me. To trust myself.

Photo by Riho Kitagawa on Unsplash (Image description: The image shows a ceramic bowl that has been repaired using the traditional Japanese art of Kintsugi. The bowl has several visible cracks filled with gold, creating a striking contrast against the smooth, dark surface of the ceramic.)